So i finally found the one. the one i have been searchin for...since forever. i had turned myself into so many things that i didnt need to be and i have put myself thru to much pain. that i didnt need to go thru and now i relize that i have the most perfect girlfriend. she amazes me in ways i could never explain. my ex of 2 years treated me like shit and i was tired of it. now i no wat it feels like to really be loved. and it stil hurts that my parents still dont accept it and that i have to live this double life but there is nothin i can do bout it....it is wat it is....at least i have my brother to back me up wen ever i need him...and he is the only one who has been there for me wen i have cried over everything...and he is only 10. i have put alot of shit on him wen he was lil...things he didnt even no yet. i have made him grow up to fast and i feel horrid but i mean now that i have my girl i have her to lean on...its hard being wit her sometimes wen we talk bout her past...i hate her 2 exes...god they drive me crazii. i love her more then she will ever no but sometimes i wish i hadnt seen her that one day. but i still cant get the image outta my head of her mohawk walkin up the skool stairs. and ill never forget how in love i was wit her. she was perfect and i didnt even no her name. but i told my best friend that i wanted her. i love the story of how we REALLY started talkin. from the me fallin for her cuz she would help clean up the party mess wit me to jessica gettin sent to Triad. we were ment for eachother and there is no one else i would rather b wit then her. she is my life my husband my teddybear and i cant wait to marry her, put tat ring on her finger. and then push her into the ocean. she means the world to me. she is my sunshine my moon and my stars. her eyes and smile put the city lights to shame. i am crazii in love wit my babygirl<3